Drag King: Timeline

One year ago I started this blog with the intention of putting my thoughts in order and share them, and also to leave a testimony of my road to the darkest depths of my identity.

So I decided, as a way to close one year of thinking and growing, to share this timeline of my story as a Drag King (click on the images to enlarge them).

I also would like to thank all those who have shared this process with me, whether in person or from the distance.

Enjoy!

June 2013

First transformation

The beginning

It would take long to tell the story of how I decided one day to transform into a man. Until now, I only did so for a few hours at a time.

The point of no return was the moment I understood that gender, being a man or a woman, is little more than wearing a costume and acting on it.

I knew it instinctively, before reading Simone de Beauvoir or knowing about Judith Butler, although of course both of them helped me understand it in depth. I knew it through the living testimony of other people, to whom their identities was a daily fight against a world trying to drown them all the time.

Image from Conversations with a Gender Therapist

I felt it in that inner trembling I could never silence, in that choking sensation followed by rage every time someone told me what to do, or how to be, for being a woman. None of them asked me if I wanted to be a woman, or if I had chosen to be one, and they probably never asked themselves what a woman is in the first place. They didn’t wonder how, they just knew it.

And that’s something I can’t stand.